Last night, I felt that a bath was in order. I felt how much I couldn’t hear the Momma talk to me when I was feeling like I was, how disconnected I was. Water is an excellent conductor in terms of reconnecting with Divinity. Some of the clearest and most powerful conversations I have had with the Momma have been during tub time. I made up a playlist of music, lit some candles, poured an essential oil blend into the water, and settled in. I knew that there was one song in particular on my playlist that was going to knock me on my ass. Right when it started to play, Momma told me that She was dedicating this song to me and to hear it as if She were singing it to me (this you tube video isn’t the point – I couldn’t figure out a way to just get the song, so it’s the lyrics that are the most important).
I was, of course balling my eyes out as I listened to it. And I recalled a very powerful post I read yesterday by Sue Ann at Always Embraces All Ways. I realized that I had stopped seeing this transformation as a manifestation of the Momma’s love for me as I had previously posted just because it had gotten a little harder, because I felt stretched a bit more and in my vision, I had no idea how I could possibly do this. So I decided to follow Sue Ann’s words of wisdom and began asking to see this differently.
This morning when I woke up, got my cup of coffee and took it and a pack of cigarettes out on my balcony, I felt differently. Whereas over the past two days, I have felt my energy all balled up and blocked inside me again like it had been at the beginning of this transformation, this morning, I felt it flowing freely once more. I felt the Momma with me, and I looked at the situation I am facing and no longer felt like I was suffocating. Instead, I felt a deep sense of peace, of faith, of competence and an ability to walk through whatever She has set before me. I felt joy. I felt a sense of coming back to my Self.