Gardening of the soul

Oh, today is a good day!  I heard from one of my dear, fellow blogging friends informing me she had created for herself a new home out there in cyberspace. So, of course, I immediately skipped on over there and my heart leapt as I read her most recent post. She wrote of the need to feel rooted and also thriving on change, and somewhere deep within me came a cry, in orgiastic agreement, “Yes!” Yes, that epitomizes a huge part of who I am and how I want to dance through my life.

I’ve been craving something recently. It’s a something that I’m not quite sure I have words for. Part of it is soul-ful friendships, connections, and community. In “real life” but also here in blogland. The kind I can sink my teeth into. The kind that have depth. The kind that challenge me to grow beyond what I know of myself in this moment. Part of it is doing that work myself. Part of it is realizing the potential that lives within me that, until very recently, I have not been ready to connect with. And I’m not sure what else there is there, but there’s more.

I’ve known for a long time now that like attracts like. That’s not hard math. If I want to develop new friendships like the ones I mentioned above, then I need to be that kind of person, that kind of friend. I cannot sit here in my little corner of cyberspace and expect those kind of friendships to just happen. I need to open myself to them but then get the fuck out there and interact! So, when I went to Miss Janece’s new home to celebrate with her and welcome her there, I visited some of the blogs of people who had come to do the same thing I had for my friend. And what wonderful places and people I found in the process! I had no doubt ever that there were amazing people out there. Kindred spirits. Yeah! 

We just had Imbolc here at our house. Imbolc signals the end of winter, the very beginning of spring. The time of year where it’s time to start seriously thinking about what I want to plant in my life and myself this year. What do I wish to grow? I find my head spinning a bit because there are so many things buzzing around up here that it’s a little dizzy-making. And just like when planting a garden (which I’d love to do at some point), this is the time of year for tilling and prepping the soil. For turning it over, clearing the space, and getting rid of the debris and weeds that have shown up over the course of the winter.

There are some things I can feel in my belly that need attention. Some weeds that I have turned a blind eye to that I need to make decisions about. Do I want to continue to feed energy into finishing my post-Masters degree? Do I even want to pursue a career in the mental health profession? If I’m not so inclined, am I not inclined because of the obstacles I perceive as being in my way? Is this one more thing that I’m not going to complete because I’m better at starting things than finishing them? Is that statement accurate? Does my behavior reflect that pattern? Is it a sour grapes kind of situation or is it a reflection of my Truth? As you can see, I’ve got some work to do!

If you are so inclined to be doing similar work, then I wish you fruitful tilling and encourage you to uncover and follow your Truth, trusting that you and your path are unfolding as they should. Remember – nothing conquers fear like love and gratitude 🙂


4 thoughts on “Gardening of the soul

  1. ((( Jess ))) YES, so many wonderful people here in blogland. I’m so happy that you found others to connect with. Like any relationship, it takes the ‘give and take’ interaction to make it work. That’s why sometimes I feel like I could make blogging my full time job so I could do it all ‘properly’! LOL

    Did you read my “about” page??? Oh, it’s so amazing how the Divine plots in our behalf! Look at the verse I chose to use from our favorite Wild Woman herself: “ The way to maintain one’s connection to the wild is to ask yourself what it is that you want. This is the sorting of the seed from the dirt. One of the most important discriminations we can make in this matter is the difference between things that beckon to us and things that call from our souls.” Clarissa Pinkola Estes

    Isn’t that just the BOMB??? JUST exactly what you were talking about. Your soul is calling to you…to me…to so many of us!

  2. (((Janece))) Me too! It’s so funny – I feel like a little kid in some ways on the first day of school. It’s been a long ass time since I made new friends that I didn’t meet via someone or because we were thrown together through school or work, etc. It’s a little bit daunting! But I’m excited and hopeful 🙂

    I sure do love me some Clarissa Pinkola Estes! She just spouts all sorts of yummy wisdom.

    Thank you for sharing the quote and for visiting and the offering of your words here! Great, big bushels of squishy hugs to you, sweet lady!

  3. Of course I had to follow you home! 😉 I am so glad that you commented at HedgeWicket. If you hadn’t I would never have found your site! Beautiful stuff–wonderful post. I’d love to link back!
    Many Blessings!

  4. Oh yeah!! I’m so glad my path led me to HedgeWicket and you!

    Thank you very much for your kind words 🙂 Going to go update my blogroll now! Whoo hoo! Can’t wait to spend some more time on your site!

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